Somethings Not Right,Something's Out of Order...Oh it's Me!

I knew that I was off. I knew that something wasn't right and totally out of line and order.
It was me, in my spirit, my walk and especially in my talk. I could definitely tell.
At the time I couldn't exactly put my finger on it but it was something.

So now here I was in prayer this particular morning crying out to you God in a desperate type of way asking you to take your place; to get back into position of where you were before in my heart God. Please come back because somewhere along the line I must have lost you. I must have let you slip away Jesus because what I'm feeling now it's not what I use to feel. I'm off.

Take back your position God.
Your first place position, in my heart, you first loved me. Come and love on me again Jesus.

Over the course of several weeks I had begun to let doubt, anxiety, worry, stress, and the biggest of all fear creep in, move in and take over in my heart. It didn't just take over it had packed some bags and moved in and had wreaked havoc everywhere. It was destroying relationships, my jobs, prayer life, and was so subtle and cunning.

***Please pay attention to the slick tricks of the enemy!!!***

I was literally thinking that I was losing my mind and thinking that something was wrong with me. I was getting into with my momma, my daughter, my friends, crying ALL the time, depressed, didn't want to do anything but just cry, sleep, and just be-- be left alone.

But oh God thank you for pressing and praying friends; that I did reach out too, and who could pick me up in the spirit. They held me up; like Aaron and Hur held up Moses hands to fight. (Ex 17:12)
I have had some sisters to help me fight in this season and I thank you.

One thing I have to be transparent about and say is how did I get here? Did I get comfortable where I was? Yes, and no. I was still seeking God like before but where I'm going I need to stay in my POSITION and go even deeper and not let anything move me and creep in. NOTHING no doubt, fear, anxiety, anxiousness, or worry, I have to be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong. 1Corinthians 16:13.

God is getting me ready to shift and to be perfectly honest with you I’m like what now? Huh? I'm going somewhere? Where am I going? I don't know? But He does. We're always like ok God I'm ready, I'm ready, use me Lord, take me God and then when the time comes we're like hold on now, wait, wait, wait, well it's too late for that.

My borders are about to be expanded, territories enlarged, but where? I don't know, I have no idea, and that's the scary part because I am Type A, I am a control freak, I am a creature of habit and I like to know where I'm going, who I'm going with, and when I'm coming back;  but not so much this time.

I just know that it's me and God; that He's got me, and that He's with me.
But most of all, He's in first position again in my heart and I thank you God.

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He's Carrying Me

Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow, This Season and in the next Season this is where I am in God.
He's carrying me.
Through all of my trials, tribulations, up, downs, lilies, and valleys, hits and blows.
God is carrying me.
Surrender, submit, let go and let God lift you up. I don't have to be strong for nothing or no one.
If you look closely at the picture you will see not only is He carrying the woman but she's hidden in His shadow too. Hide me in that secret place in you God.
One of my favorite poems is Footprints in the Sand and this picture depicts every single word of that poem. (Please see below)

For those of you not going through, you better thank God for your season of peace, joy, and rest in Him; for others that are you better be like Jacob
in Genesis 32:26-30   
Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
 But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”


²⁷ The man asked him, “What is your name?” “Jacob,” he answered.
 ²⁸ Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel,
 because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.” 
²⁹ Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.” But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?”
 Then he blessed him there. ³⁰ So Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, 
“It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.” 

I promise you it's coming until then...look at the picture daily and know that God's got you in His loving arms carrying you through it all!! You will be blessed! We all will, and we won't stopped until we see our God face to face.

I know for a fact that some of you are going through but reach out and encourage someone else, pray for someone, bless someone else, set them up and you'll be setting your self up too. For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.” Matthew 18:20
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The Footprints Prayer

One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.
- See more at: http://www.prayers-for-special-help.com/footprints-prayer.html#sthash.folHwmxy.dpuf

One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.
- See more at: http://www.prayers-for-special-help.com/footprints-prayer.html#sthash.folHwmxy.dpuf

The Footprints Prayer

One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.
- See more at: http://www.prayers-for-special-help.com/footprints-prayer.html#sthash.folHwmxy.dpuf

The Footprints Prayer

One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.
- See more at: http://www.prayers-for-special-help.com/footprints-prayer.html#sthash.folHwmxy.dpuf

The Footprints Prayer

One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.
- See more at: http://www.prayers-for-special-help.com/footprints-prayer.html#sthash.folHwmxy.dpuf

Going Through a Storm

Good Morning Sisters!
Jesus, you have always been with me in the midst of my storms God; and in this season, and in this time, it ain't no different than any other. It just feels like it.
I'm in the boat with God and He is literally rowing me.
In faith (even as little as a mustard seed) I'm trusting and believing in God that He's rowing me in the boat of my life.
During the good times and especially during the bad times.
I’m trusting God to row me, lead me and guide me through it all. I have no other choice.

I had enough faith in God to save me. To save my life from the Hell I called life and world in 2001.
He saved me from that pit.
I began to turn to Him, to believe something in Him, by the words that I was hearing about Him and His goodness about who He was and His goodness and greatness, I took a chance.
I thank God for the seeds that were sown, the seeds that took root to a stoney heart that had begun to turn fertile.
I took a chance on God, I tried Him, but really He tried, He took a chance, He chose me and He loved me first.
I stepped out on faith --the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen.
I stepped out on faith that He would make it better for me. He would make my life better for me, but really, it's all for Him, He made my life better for Him. He's doing it for Him and His glory.

So here I am and now there's crashing waves hitting me in this raging sea Jesus, the deep current of waters, the tsunamis, cyclones, tornadoes God and I'm being tossed to and fro and all over the place with everything hitting and I'm tired God. I'm hurting, I'm crying every day, every night, wanting to jump overboard Jesus, yea that's right I said it. It's real talk.

But I can't, I don't, because I remember that I have a Savior (SAVER), a life jacket, a preserver, a dingy, an anchor, I got a real live life guard name JESUS CHRIST that's in the boat with me that's rowing me in these troubled times that won't tell the storms to be still and be calm just yet like he easily can with His voice but will be right there with me, in them, and by my side.

Jesus I trusted you then and oh God how I have to trust you even more now, I thank you for remember me, and for being in the boat with me but I thank you for never changing because if you are the same God that did it for your disciples that calmed the raging seas in Matthew 8:23-27 I know you'll do it for me too. It gets better, it gets easier, just hold on, this too shall pass.

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